[Pm] If she makes you a better person, then its best for you I suppose. I do want you to be at your best. Not just so you can help, but because I care. Its just really hard for me to be completely okay with you choosing her when we’rebher in the thick of it. I’ve never felt like I needed to be with someone the way you do with her. Even Angel, and I still cant let go of what we had together. Ive tried to move on, to act as though there isn’t a part of me wishing we were together. But there is, and I understand why you feel like you need to go. I feel it too, I just push it away and keep reminding myself of the big picture. I remind myself that he’s able to move on so I should too. I remind myself that especially now, the media that seems to follow all my actions must never go near him (or Spike). I can’t risk him. And I wouldn’t do what you’re doing if he and I were in yours and Faith’s situation… But I can understand why you’re doing it. Can that be enough?
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[pm] If you haven’t noticed Buff, I’m not really the get out and socialize type these days. And there’s nothing much that I bring to the table that I can’t give you in a phone call or an email. No one out there will notice I’m gone. Besides, I don’t look too swell on paper either. Me being a fringe Scooby for a little while might actually help you. And you don’t need to worry about anyone on my tail. I’ve got the ways and the experience. I’ll make sure none of you are in danger if I go.
[Pm] You can do what you want. I’ve said all I can think of to make you stay… I think if you were to stay here under the radar you’d still be more useful than being gone. You’re one of the most powerful people we have on our side, and magic has the advantage of being something that the media and government literally cannot track as of yet. But go if you really think it’s what’s best.
[pm] What if I promised to come back?
[Pm] I cant say it wouldn’t piss me off that you left in the first place. I could never hate you, obviously. But you cant leave at a time like this. Or I mean, I dont want you to. This is about Faith isn’t it? Look, I understand you love her. But you know my opinion on this and you know what I’ve sacrificed for the greater good. We’re on the verge of a war here, one with humans involved. We cant fight this the way we always have, we need the gang to be at full strength. You understand that. Faith is a criminal, and I know she’s trying to find her retribution. I get that, but with these news reporters watching our every move don’t you think they’d notice if one of us went off to go find her? We have to be careful now. Certain actions look a certain way and they might be used against us. Plus, reporters might follow you. You might lead them to Faith. Then the cops will not only arrest her, but you. What good can either of you do in jail?
[pm] You said we were friends. Not if you were ready to talk to me again or not. Are you?
[pm] I’m just not sure, Willow. I miss talking to you, but we both need to admit there’s a lot unsaid between us that’s gonna have to come out. And we might end up fighting, and I cant handle that right now. I have a lot going on right now, you know with Dawn and other things.
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That’s not how it is. She’s trying to help.She knows about everything else I have going on and she’s just trying to make it better. So just, you know, take your time. I get the messed up thing. We can do this when you’re ready.
Thank you Willow. I promise one day it will be better, it’s just gonna have to hurt for now I guess.
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I don’t want a free pass. And I am dealing with the side-effects. I’d deal with more but the ones I’ve got mostly say ‘leave us alone Willow’.’
I know you don’t, but Faith sure wants one for you. That much is obvious. I’m trying to protect you here, can’t you see that? I’m all messed up on the inside and I just need to fix it before I can talk to you about this.
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Dawn…Dawn came back wrong? I-I thought she was just mad at me. I didn’t resurect her, it wasn’t supposed to be like how it was with you. I wouldn’t do that.
Well, she still died. You told me that. You’ve never died before, so you can’t really understand what that does to a person. She’s not just angry, she’s traumatized. I know you wouldn’t. I don’t know where she was when you and your crew changed her destiny. Willow, I just need to deal with things. Going back in time has sort of brought some things to the forefront of my mind and I can’t handle fighting with you. I can’t handle hurting you. I have too much on my plate. Please, I’m begging you. You saved the world, and I love you. Let’s drop this before it gets out of hand.
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Yeah. Sure.
Look, Willow. I know you’re hurt, it’s obvious. I’d tell you not to be that way, but you have every right. Just… lets talk once we’ve mellowed okay?
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I-I didn’t want to lie to you. I’m sorry.
No, of course you didn’t. No one wants to lie when their good intentions go wrong. I’m just tired Willow. So many people try and do the right thing and Buffy’s left to pick up the pieces…
I wasn’t lying when I said I can’t talk about this. These words feel shitty even coming out of my mouth, but I just want to tell the truth too.
Can we please drop this? Just drop it all.
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Not that I know of yet. I-I’m still kinda looking. And I don’t think we’ll ever know for sure-for sure…
Why did you tell me this, Will? What were you expecting from me? I thought all was right in world, but no, it never turns out that way with you does it…
Wow. I can’t talk about this Willow, not right now.