theredheadedwitch:

ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:

theredheadedwitch:

ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:

[pm] I did. How about you? The partial scooby get together go well?

[pm] Yeah, it was nice. And cooking with Cordy was pretty great too. I was a total spaz, but she was nice about it and all. 🙂

I even got this idea while I was over there and now I’m even poking at my books and everything like a regular bookworm. A-and it’s a good idea, like a make-Buffy-happy one. Maybe. I don’t know if it’s even plausible yet, hence the book poking, but maybe if I can do it I’ll be less…not-good?

[pm] I’ve become surprisingly good at cooking, what with my years of practice at home maker duties.

And idea? Care to share it with me? Buffy could definitely use some happy making.

[pm] Well, I don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up yet. But what little I’ve found so far is pointing to it being possible.

[pm] Okay, that does make me happy. I know you want to make it right. Tell me once your plan’s a done cookin’.

theredheadedwitch:

ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:

[pm] I did. How about you? The partial scooby get together go well?

[pm] Yeah, it was nice. And cooking with Cordy was pretty great too. I was a total spaz, but she was nice about it and all. 🙂

I even got this idea while I was over there and now I’m even poking at my books and everything like a regular bookworm. A-and it’s a good idea, like a make-Buffy-happy one. Maybe. I don’t know if it’s even plausible yet, hence the book poking, but maybe if I can do it I’ll be less…not-good?

[pm] I’ve become surprisingly good at cooking, what with my years of practice at home maker duties.

And idea? Care to share it with me? Buffy could definitely use some happy making.

Willow Fierceberg: ghost-of-fashion-victims-past: [pm] I know you’d do it Willow, but you…

ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:

[pm] I know you’d do it Willow, but you shouldn’t have to. It shouldn’t be something you ponder when there is an easier solution. I support you being with her because it makes you happy. But she knows better and she knows what she did and I cant get past it. I…

[pm] Easy was the wrong word. Nothing is ever easy, especially not the right thing. Just relax. I’m not attacking anyone. (And I do sort of have the right to be attack worthily pissed at Faith) Everything is fine, people just disagree sometimes. That’s the way it is. You’re still the same great Willow I know and love.

Willow Fierceberg: ghost-of-fashion-victims-past: [pm] I know you’d do it Willow, but you…

Willow Fierceberg: ghost-of-fashion-victims-past: theredheadedwitch replied to your post:…

ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:

theredheadedwitch replied to your post: Do you still support Willow and Faith’s relationship?

[pm] We have a plan. I told you, Buffy. I /promised/. This isn’t the thing you need to worry about.

[pm] I can’t not worry. I wish I could be sorry…

[pm] I know you’d do it Willow, but you shouldn’t have to. It shouldn’t be something you ponder when there is an easier solution. I support you being with her because it makes you happy. But she knows better and she knows what she did and I cant get past it. I wont stop worrying about it. I don’t want to argue with you about this because it’s not getting anywhere. I can tell neither of us are going to budge. Let’s drop it.

Willow Fierceberg: ghost-of-fashion-victims-past: theredheadedwitch replied to your post:…

theredheadedwitch replied to your post: Do you still support Willow and Faith’s relationship?

[pm] We have a plan. I told you, Buffy. I /promised/. This isn’t the thing you need to worry about.

[pm] I can’t not worry. I wish I could be sorry but I’m not. You know where I stand on this and you of all people know the choices I’ve had to make because of this curse. I’m not ever going to be comfortable with this. And I can’t understand why you would want to do that to yourself. I killing Angel was the most painful thing I’ve ever done. Why would you ever want to contemplate doing that to Faith when the easy answer would be to just take certain measures to be certain it wont happen? Then you won’t have to have a plan or a promise.

But like I said, I can’t control you or Faith. All I can control are my own choices. And I choose to worry and prepare because it’s the only thing I can do in this situation. I’m helpless here and it’s not a feeling I like, I’ll do anything I can to ease it.

phone call @Buffy

Willow: [frowns a little, but nods.] Y-yeah. I’m um, I’m home. [She sighs. Faith. How can she…if Buffy can forgive her, surely Faith can, someday. But will she even want to look at her long enough for Willow to warn her?] I’ll…I’ll see what I can do?[She pauses and grows solemn.] I did this to her. I didn’t ask, and it’s not what she wanted. You should know that. That what I did isn’t something she wanted for herself at all. She would’ve rather had the other way. I-I haven’t really um…talked to her much or done anything with her much, actually. There’s a porch, outside? W-where porches tend to be, I guess, a-and a garden out back. We could go there, i-if it’s a problem…?
Buffy: [Breathes in deeply] I can’t really be mad about the way her soul is in, you guys did what you had to. It’s just the whole secret thing, you really put Dawn in danger with what you did. She knows I know, and I wasn’t exactly nice about it. I just don’t want to fight with her, not tonight. [She sighs. She needs to change the topic and fast.] But that’s not what this is about. I just need to know you’re okay. I’m coming over, it’ll all work itself out. [She smiles but her eyes are still a little teary and you can hear it in her voice] I’ll see you in a jiffy, okay?

phone call @Buffy

Buffy: [purses her lips, thinking of how to answer, how to convey all that she is feeling] You don’t have to make anyone want to be with you. So many people love you and want to be with you, to help you. [She lets out a sharp breath, the tears have finally stopped and her mind is clear] I know what I said before. That I couldn’t be around you. But I was wrong. [She swallows down the lumps in her throat, admitting it makes her feel better. Lighter maybe? She was wrong.] I was weak, Willow. I forgot my truth. The only truth worth listening to. [Buffy runs her free hand through her hair pausing to wet her lips, and continues.] You have to keep fighting, Willow. Keep trying. It’s the best any of us can do.
Willow: [wants to believe her so bad, wants it more than she wants air, and she’s hyperventilating. She tries to gather herself and whispers.] Buffy…Buffy there’s something else. About me. How I…how I am. What, I mean. I-I mean what I am. You can’t…you can’t say that stuff about me when…Buffy, it’s still inside me. All that stuff I put in when I tried to hurt everyone? And I have to use it to keep from going all scary. I /have/ to. And it’s in so deep. I can’t get rid of it. I used to think, I thought maybe, it could be okay anyways? Since that wasn’t all I had inside me? B-but this…what if it doesn’t matter what kind of magicks I’m using? If being inside me just makes it the same anyways. [She sniffles heavily] I’m scared. And I think fighting on your side for me might just be…doing nothing.
Buffy: [is stunned as she takes it all in. But the answer seems to come easily for her.] Look Willow, its not who you are. It’s what you do. And if your magic is all wonky now, it doesn’t matter. [she wants nothing more than to be there with Willow now, so she can see just how much she means what she’s saying] You are so much more than the magic inside of you. Willow… You’re the smartest person I know. And you’re strong. You’re so much better at figuring out life than I am Willow. I believe in you. [She’s nodding her head even though Willow can’t see it]

phone call @Buffy

Buffy: [can hear Willow crying. None of this is right.] It was my idea, we did it together. [She’s not going to let Willow blame herself for this. It was a team effort. They both knew what they were doing.] You’re not going to say that. You are good. I know it, I feel it. What we did was right. [Through her tears she realizes something.] I don’t care what someone in another dimension or plane or whatever says. I’m here and you are good. This is where life is happening and we saved the world that day. [She has to stop and breathe because she’s talking so fast. She lets out a short sob, unable to stop crying.] You are good Willow. And even if you aren’t, I don’t care.
Willow: [shakes her head violently.] W-what do I do? Buffy, what do I do? I can’t…how can I live with myself o-or make anyone live with me, or anything? I-I’m…Buffy, I’m so.. [She swallows.] H-help me.
Buffy: [purses her lips, thinking of how to answer, how to convey all that she is feeling] You don’t have to make anyone want to be with you. So many people love you and want to be with you, to help you. [She lets out a sharp breath, the tears have finally stopped and her mind is clear] I know what I said before. That I couldn’t be around you. But I was wrong. [She swallows down the lumps in her throat, admitting it makes her feel better. Lighter maybe? She was wrong.] I was weak, Willow. I forgot my truth. The only truth worth listening to. [Buffy runs her free hand through her hair pausing to wet her lips, and continues.] You have to keep fighting, Willow. Keep trying. It’s the best any of us can do.