[pm]No, but I mean like…the safe kind. With parachutes and someone strapped to your back. I wouldn’t just jump off a building. I don’t want to die again..
[pm] Couldn’t you just go to an amusement park for the day? I’d think that would fulfill your need for speed?
ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:
[pm] It takes time to go away, a lot of time. But it will one day, and hopefully you won’t feel the need to do self destructive things on the way there. Just promise me you won’t do crazy shit to feel alive, it’s not worth it. You’re alive, I swear.
[pm] I’ll try to fight the urge, that’s for sure. Nothing too crazy…although maybe skydiving would be fun…
[pm] Tried that already, from a tower. It’s not so fun, and it can lead to death. The last thing I want is you dying again or getting hurt.
Nothing’s fine, I’m torn..
ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:
[pm] I’ve just talked to Willow about it. I want to make this all as easy as possible for you. I don’t want you to fall as far as I did. You’ve got me to protect you, I didn’t have that. Or anyone apart from Spike who even knew what I was going through in the slightest. I can’t let that happen to you.
[pm] Lucky for me, I have my big sister to look out for me. Like always. I can’t believe you used to feel this way.
[pm] It takes time to go away, a lot of time. But it will one day, and hopefully you won’t feel the need to do self destructive things on the way there. Just promise me you won’t do crazy shit to feel alive, it’s not worth it. You’re alive, I swear.
I’ll try and be as vague as possible because if you don’t already know what details I’m leaving out then it’s something you need to know.
Basically, what Faith did is thrown in my face every day and the effects of it are something I’m actively fighting. So it’s sort of still happening. And she’s done some other things as of late to piss me off more.
Anon, I think maybe you don’t know what you’re talking about. And if you did, you wouldn’t have to ask this question. The answer is obvious to me.
ghost-of-fashion-victims-past replied to your post: [pm] I’m not gonna bother asking if you’re okay, because it’s obvious you aren’t. But if you want to talk to me, I’m here. I’m always here for you Dawnie.[pm] I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry that this had to happen to you, you don’t deserve to have this inside of you. I wish I could make it all go away. But I can’t. I will, however, make sure you don’t have to see Faith ever again if that’s what you want.
[pm]I’d appreciate that for now, at least. There are more important things I need to focus on besides her.
[pm] I’ve just talked to Willow about it. I want to make this all as easy as possible for you. I don’t want you to fall as far as I did. You’ve got me to protect you, I didn’t have that. Or anyone apart from Spike who even knew what I was going through in the slightest. I can’t let that happen to you.
ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:
ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:
[pm] I did. How about you? The partial scooby get together go well?
[pm] Yeah, it was nice. And cooking with Cordy was pretty great too. I was a total spaz, but she was nice about it and all. 🙂
I even got this idea while I was over there and now I’m even poking at my books and everything like a regular bookworm. A-and it’s a good idea, like a make-Buffy-happy one. Maybe. I don’t know if it’s even plausible yet, hence the book poking, but maybe if I can do it I’ll be less…not-good?
[pm] I’ve become surprisingly good at cooking, what with my years of practice at home maker duties.
And idea? Care to share it with me? Buffy could definitely use some happy making.
[pm] Well, I don’t want to get anyone’s hopes up yet. But what little I’ve found so far is pointing to it being possible.
[pm] Okay, that does make me happy. I know you want to make it right. Tell me once your plan’s a done cookin’.
I Dreamed a Dream- Anne Hathaway
This Is A Test 