theredheadedwitch:

ghost-of-fashion-victims-past:

[pm] I will never hate you Willow. You’ve been there for me for so long and you’re my best friend. I love you and I’ll never be able to stop. No matter how much it hurts me. You can drag me down from heaven and I won’t stop, I didn’t stop. But I cant trust you right now. Not after Anya being back and no one telling me. I get why you did it, for protection. It’s the same reason you hid this from me. I understand, but I cant go on living this way. I at allow the people I choose to keep close to me to be ones who treat me like a monster. Its not healthy, not mentally. And the lies put me and mine in danger. I will always worry about Dawn. She could be bubble wrapped from head to toe and living in a padded box and I’d worry. Ive already lost so much, I cant take any chances. I love you Willow and I see why you did what you did, but I can’t do this anymore. Goodbye for now Willow. I hope you will come to understand one day why I had to do this.

[pm] Buffy, please, I don’t know what to do. I’m bad and I can’t make it stop. I love you Please tell me what to do.

[pm] I don’t know what to do. I haven’t known what to do for so long. You’re not bad, you’re Willow. I don’t know what happened during that spell, but you’re Willow. I can’t be this all knowing person everyone wants me to be. I’m trying so hard and it’s not working and everything is always falling apart, Willow. It always falls apart. I love you but it hurts so much. I want it to be okay but I don’t know how to make it that way.