[pm] I’m a powerful Wicca and an academic in secret; I can take a trip and still help. Or at least that’s the plan anyways. She makes me better, Buffy. I’ll be better at being what you need if everything works out. But even if they don’t, I’m not leaving the fight. I’m not going to stop trying. And I want you to be okay with this because you’re still my hero, even if I can’t ever come close to comparing with you.

[Pm] If she makes you a better person, then its best for you I suppose. I do want you to be at your best. Not just so you can help, but because I care. Its just really hard for me to be completely okay with you choosing her when we’rebher in the thick of it. I’ve never felt like I needed to be with someone the way you do with her. Even Angel, and I still cant let go of what we had together. Ive tried to move on, to act as though there isn’t a part of me wishing we were together. But there is, and I understand why you feel like you need to go. I feel it too, I just push it away and keep reminding myself of the big picture. I remind myself that he’s able to move on so I should too. I remind myself that especially now, the media that seems to follow all my actions must never go near him (or Spike). I can’t risk him. And I wouldn’t do what you’re doing if he and I were in yours and Faith’s situation… But I can understand why you’re doing it. Can that be enough?